Sunday, September 14, 2008
someone asked me this last night.."What do you fear?"i mulled over that for awhile..turns out, the one thing i fear is fear itself.because fear makes you weak and weakness, i hate weakness.death too actually.amazing how i naively thought i had gotten everything into prospective after my first proper "blow" in my otherwise cushioned fuzzy pink life.its been about 4 months since you've left us so abruptly.and that, was my second awakening.tho we've moved to a stage where talking abt you doesn't sting.but somehow it still feels like you're on a long holiday..life goes on.we grow old.is that it?awakenings are infinite.because there will always be so much more to lifeto realise and to learn.how i wish i can remain a (history) student for life.and how i wish things wld remain the way they are now for.. for as long as it can.cos this is one routine I'll gladly and blissfully slip into..
Are you drinking?
10:18 PM