honey, i can read your intentions.
and i can read your thoughts even before you can gather them.

and well,
it aint a pretty picture.

been there, done that.

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Are you drinking? 2:50 PM

every word whispered so lovingly in the darkness, erased.
every memory made, erased.
every emotion felt, erased.
every promise made, erased.
every moment together, void.
when you said you were afraid things would change,
it was fear for your side wasn't it.
i finally get it.
honey, it is was that fucking insignificant . to you.

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Are you drinking? 4:01 AM

not exactly annus mirabilis (anymore) .

I'm out of it for a little while, and everybody gets delusions of grandeur.

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Are you drinking? 11:10 AM

And in came a heatwave
A merciful save
You choose, you chose
Poetry over prose

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Are you drinking? 9:42 PM

make me look at things in a different light,
in a neoteric sense of wonder & childish delight.

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Are you drinking? 10:03 AM

I understand the price
The cost of craving dark
instead of light

My blood
My hand
My soul

I've thrown them without control
The things I freely give
And now I'm left in pieces

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Are you drinking? 1:38 PM

Cos you only wanted me
The way you wanted me

I don't believe in miracles
Not like I did before

There's a paragraph or two
devoted to the memories that we shared
in the dramatized songs about how there'll be
no more memories

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Are you drinking? 12:19 PM

starry eyed surprise
by my side,
intoxicating melody
seek for mine
held.
electric.

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Are you drinking? 12:22 AM

What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up
Like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore--
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over--
like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?

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Are you drinking? 9:58 AM

you finally said the words i've wanted to hear.
but it's just too late.

These empty metaphors
They're all in vain

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Are you drinking? 12:40 PM

To I,

i know how hard it must be for you now.
to try your very bestest to bear your soul to us.
to understand what's going on, around us, inside you.

normally, when im very sad, i just cry & the pain goes away.
and now, when im already all cried out.
i thought the floodgates will open after reading your diary.
but no, no tears. None.
what im feeling now, is much worse.
worst that i've ever known.
no tears, yet i feel my wreckin heart breaking into pieces.

no, i havent absorbed all of it yet.
you're right.
we're going on like nth's gonna happen.
like you're gonna be here with us Forever.
yet i know come july, you're gonna be far far away.
and i know, you're the one going thru the worst ever struggle now.


i know im the softie, the baby in the grp.
its just that im doin wht you're doin.
you wanna protect me. so you appear happy & mad.
i just appear happy too.
yet im almost completely destroyed inside.
tryin to be happy and excited for you.
i do confide in F sometimes .
but ive always hated bein the "Baby" in any grp.
for the first time i can confidently say that ive been thr done that.
im not a baby anymore babe.
dont pretend to be sthg that kills you infront of me.
cry, weep, confess your fears.
we're here.
our love, unconditionable.

when P came, i guess it cld be sthg called a "God Sent".
a tiniest glimpse of hope.
but i guess not.
disappointment.
me being so purely selfish.
i felt ashamed of myself.
end of day,
its your happiness that's impt to me.

you wanna know my inner deepest thoughts?
let me lay them down for you now.
well, sometimes. i hate him for comin here.
in just afew days.
fuckin sweep you off your feet.
and nxt thing i know
you're plannin to go off to some fuckin foreign racist land to be with him.
what is this?
love?
i pray it is.

all the sadness, the one thing im dreadin, the slight rage in me.
i just want to rid myself of them.
and just be there for you.

yet its killing me.
i know i always say that thr is noone that anyone cant live without.
yet the thought of not bein able to see you. talk to you. msg you. bitch with you.
it fuckin kills.
God sends me a friend like you.
i gave him my sincere and grateful thanks.
yet now you're gonna go .
all good things do come to an end.

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Are you drinking? 12:59 AM

it's the kind of sleepwalk that never ends.
a type of loan with no dividends.
it's a parlour game where you're given chase.
guess it could be called an acquired taste.
i know

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Are you drinking? 12:49 AM